Touched again by the love of God

At school I recall being very moved singing hymns. One time I was at a United Reformed Church in Granville Street with our school, singing songs to God and was in tears it was so lovely, though it didn’t seem to affect anyone else. I knew then how much I loved God.

But when it was all over, we walked out the church, and I left the church, and Ieft God. I just walked away, and I just forgot about him.

I had a series of relationships: married at 16, and then again at 22. And then I started drinking, smoking, having affairs.  I had two children with a guy I didn’t marry and later another relationship. I wasn’t living a good life.

Eventually I moved to a lovely place in Cleethorpes and as I was flicking through the channels on the TV came across Premier Radio. I enjoyed the mix of songs, sermons and prayers.  I Just felt the same as what I felt that day in church at Granville Street. Tears were rolling down my face again, and I fell to the floor on my knees. I just loved it.

Premier Radio kept on saying, ‘get into a church!’. And I kept saying, ‘No, thank you. No, thank you. I’m all right on my own.’ But one day I was walking in Cleethorpes, and I met a lady, who  was saying hello to my little dog. We started talking. I told her about Premier Radio, (as I tell everybody I meet about Premier Radio). She said she went to a church. And I said, ‘Okay, I’ll try it. I’ll meet you outside.’ (She’d lost her only daughter, and she still loved God and Jesus. And that was absolutely amazing to me).

That was 2018. In time I got baptised, by full immersion. My children and grandchildren were there. It was so exciting.

Of course, soon after covid came, when no one could attend church. Then a few years later I found I had to move from my little flat to look after my granddaughter. I was just so upset and just crying. I couldn’t understand why I had to move from my little flat, and I became ill, and I was crying to God, ‘Why? Why? Why? I don’t understand why this has to happen.’

In desperation I rang the Lifeline team at Premier and someone prayed over me to find another church to attend. Shortly after I met another stranger when I was out walking the dog. Again we got talking. I mentioned Premier. She offered to pray over me and invited me to her church.  And that was it. I found my church: another answer to prayer!

It just amazes me. Just fills me with awe of God, what he can do. He can do miracles, and for me it was a miracle for me to find this church.